JGF October 8, 2024 12:50pm PT
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I wrote I Wonder (see below) while transitioning into a peaceful place. One I had longed for during a time that seemed lengthier than it was. As I come across these words, I am filled with relief. This is a gentle reminder that life is not all lows and not all highs, but rather a journey of both. Life, like progress, is not linear. Despite its definition involving "sequential," it is indeed anything but straight. This is a reminder to you, dear reader, viewer, listener. Even though what you are going through may seem impossible to recover from. Even if the darkness seems to lack a spark on which you can rely. Even if your pain has forgotten how to smile, it will remember. The darkness will be shined upon. Healing will come upon you. Perhaps not in the sense in which you imagined, but rather transformational. Pain, after all, is a teacher.
We are on a journey that feels rather unreasonable at times. It is nonlinear, unpredictable, and beautiful. It is indeed a road filled with plenty. There are laughs. There are tears. There is joy. There is pain. There is sense. There is confusion. There is logic. There is not. Life, without emotion, is non-existent. Our right now transforms our views. Hardship changes us. It is what strengthens our character. It is what softens our hearts. It is what prepares us to love. It is what teaches us compassion. It is what makes us strong. The series of events that occur in our lives change us constantly. Transformation is inevitable. So, my friend, if you take anything from this piece of writing, remember this: Life without pain, challenges, and happenings, is merely a life at all. The difficult times will inform you. Pain, even though may seem infinite, will be interrupted by joy. You will smile again. You will laugh again. You will love. You will be loved. You will be glad to have loved. You will be pleased to have known. You will find strength in transformation and it will find you. You will look back and smile ahead as the evolution of you is in full bloom. peace & love, jgf Will I ever find myself again,
or have I broken beyond repair? Will the weight of my heart prevent me from recovery? And is there such a thing? JGF December 12, 2023 6:30pmPT
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Was this a journey into a loss of mind? It began slowly and metastasized. She was consumed. Who she saw in the mirror, she could no longer identify. by Jessica G Ferrer JGF February 12, 2023 8:01pm PT Leaning in toward her reflection, she made an attempt to pull her out of the spiral she’d been under. Chaos was the narrative living in her mind. Inside there was no relief. She searched outward, but all she could hear was a stranger’s monologue, “what you need…” She didn't want to just be heard, she wanted to be helped, but help wasn’t helping. It was merely a finger pointing in another direction. One she’d already ran, walked, crawled. She looked up and wondered what she was to do next. A crush for those around her would be her relief. Avoidant, she sat still, eyes closed and hopeless. She waited. By Jessica G Ferrer |
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