I've had some time to myself lately. While Facebook, Instagram, and all these other social portals are present, they don't do much to me as they do to most people. I just can't find the energy to engage so naturally online the way most people do. During this time (alone time), I've felt lost, empty, sheltered, alone, and scared. Although these emotions have channeled through me, I've also taken the "trip down memory lane". I've visited moments of my past. I've unravelled sheltered emotions. I've even experienced the visitation of suppressed feelings. Ones that I didn't even know existed.
It's quite amazing what time alone can do to us. At first when I was experiencing fear of loneliness I didn't really know why. Other than the fact that when alone, one tends to seek company, at least for some people. This time it was different. I connected with a part of me I never had before. For the first time in my life I understood things about myself. I understood why I was so afraid of accepting things the way they were. I understood why I was so afraid of facing important people in my life with reality rather than omissions or dressed up "facts".
If there is one thing the experience of being alone with myself, with my thoughts has taught me anything is perspective. It's all about the way you see things. It's also about why you see things the way you do and understanding them.
Take some time to yourself. Meditate with your eyes closed and/or open. Take time for yourself, to yourself. Learn about you. It's a better world when you understand yourself. Trust me, I'm still learning, each and everyday.
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