ONE OF THE MOST REALEST THINGS I'VE EVER TOLD MYSELF? STOP BEING A CRybABY.
Unhappy. Days turned into weeks and soon it was long enough. I could see myself sitting in the air as the walls around me moved forward and gravity pulled me back, way back. I had been getting better for some time and somehow I was back at nothing. This time it was worse. There was a feeling of desperation. I couldn't really understand it. I just knew I wasn't happy. Was it the choices I’d made? Was it where I was in my life at the moment? What was it about my life that was so bad that I couldn’t find a genuine moment of laughter, of conversation, of interaction with someone? At what point did I allow myself to feel miserable when there was nothing to feel miserable about?
My wise father often tells me, “All you really need is peace”. It took some time for me to fully understand this, but it turns out he's right. When you find peace, you’re okay with the world and its natural occurrences. I used to pity those who lived in misery. As pleasurable a situation, they always find a way to lose themselves in it and not in a good way. I saw myself falling into that hole and before I reached the bottom, I began to pull myself up. I soon realized the origin of this feeling. It was all about cause and effect. Worrying got me there. Worrying about a far future. The continued attempts to manipulate a situation out of my control.
We live in a society that everything is going and going. We forget that we need a moment. Most of us are programmed to think about the future and how to get there. How do we get there? It’s an uncertainty that we’ll even get there, so why do we spend so much time worrying about getting there?
If you’ve seen The Incredibles, you may have found Edna Mode’s philosophy quite memorable, “I never look back darling! It distracts me from the now”. Although humorous, especially the way Brad Bird (voice actor) says it, it’s actually true. When you look back, you can’t think about the now. When you look at the future, you can’t think about the now. We can’t physically be in three places at once. It’s just humanly impossible. We weren’t designed to either. Think about how exhausting it would be to go back and forth. So what is the best option, living in the now or worrying about the future and living in the past? The choice is up to you and so is your happiness.
Reality reached me. I looked at myself in the mirror and I couldn’t recognize myself. It was then when I decided I would no longer be cemented onto that "chair". Gravity exists and so do I. I stopped being a crybaby. I began to do what I needed. To my surprise, finding peace was easier than expected. It’s a decision of self-control. When you think about it, almost everything is. When you choose to open your eyes and see the power of self-control for yourself, you realize how powerful you really are. So go ahead, start living in the now.